March 8th this post was lost in my drafts
March 24th this photo was taken
I used to look at girls that loved getting dressed, and changing outfits, and love shopping, and would say, WHY! Why do they love this so much, and I hate it. I find it funny how, I’m one of those girls now, I’m no girly girl, but I do like to find clothes, and find my style, and dress how I feel, and look how I want to look. The ability to have more options when it comes to clothing, I mean it feels amazing! Obviously I wish I could’ve felt this way, when I was a little over 50lbs heavier, but I’m here now and I’m better than ever.
I just ordered a couple pieces to put things together, with my clothes that fit me bigger, since I don’t want to buy a whole new wardrobe, because I don’t plan to stay at this size. These clothes won’t fit me either, so I ordered a couple things and I fell in love! I already feel the difference in how I look in the mirror and feel. My thoughts are different, the way I move is different. I’m still me, I’m just a better more confident me. I feel power in that, I feel power in the little things, I see my accomplishments as the greatest thing to feel, and in that I love myself more for striving for more.
You’re only as good as the people around you, that goes with everything in life, negative people, content people, wealthy people, wise people, etc. I’m choosing who I want to be everyday, and not everyone can come on this journey with me, and that’s okay. Never lose track of the fact that, your life, is yours to create. You are the universe because you’re a part of it, you create your own reality! I like to think I am my own god. As crazy as that sounds! I am a goddess on my own, and I’ll never settle for less than.