I’m moving, there I said. I am freaking moving!! On my last day of work, Saturday morning I woke up and the decision was final. I sent a text message to all of my coworkers and I let them know where I will be going. Also on my last day, I got on the metro north, I went to the city and I then told my family that I was moving and where I was going.
Sunday morning I woke up with my family, we all had a little sleepover at my grandmothers house. It was a surreal moment for me, I don’t normally spend time with my family often, and Sunday morning and day were perfect. I drove back to Connecticut with my mother my sister because I needed to pack my clothes, and get ready to go out with my friends I met at work ( my other family) to celebrate my last day and me moving.
So I came upstairs and my roommate was here and I whined about how I have to pack all my stuff and throw away everything, actually these clothes are the last piece of my old life that I have. It’s sad to think of it sometimes but honestly I feel happy, I feel excited, I feel a burden lifted off of me, I feel free. As I sit here and look at the piles of clothes and I how I separated them, how there are plenty of things here that I still haven’t worn, they have tags, I literally just sit here and think holy shit, I worked to purchase all of this and for what.
It validates me, in knowing that I made the best decision for me. I’m moving, And it doesn’t feel real and I’ve come to acknowledge that it only doesn’t feel real because I’m still here and here is where I need to be right now, finish up what I need to finish up, open my mind up to my new reality because I only decided on Saturday morning.
It’s all happening faster than I expected but it’s all happening at the perfect time, and I can’t believe this is what I’ve turn my life into. I never would’ve actually said I was moving and actually did it. My life is changing before my eyes and as I sit here I can’t help but think that I did that. I made a choice, I made choices, every single choice that I made has led me here, and that’s what I have control over.
I have control over the choices that I make because they’re all mine, sometimes you get mixed up and you get caught up in temptation and things get fun, and you lose yourself, a little bit in the second, you enjoy yourself, but the key is to not actually lose yourself but to just lose yourself in the moment. So you can enjoy it, understanding that a moment is just that, is more power than anything you can ever imagine.
So now I’m ready to move, I’m ready for this new life. I’m ready for this new climate, I’m ready for this new culture, I’m ready for this new family, I’m ready for this new look on the world.
P.S I will be keeping the destination to myself for a little bit longer since I just decided, and my friends and family know. For now that seems good enough for me. When you tell someone you’re moving you get bombarded with questions, it’s exciting it’s new it’s news people are happy for you it’s all great, but in explaining it over and over again, I don’t get to enjoy it within myself so I’m going to do that for a while and I can’t wait to show you guys this journey because that is exactly what it will be.