I’m not gonna lie, I picked a lot of my shit up, put it where it belongs, but I ain’t got it all yet. I still find myself holding myself back. Sometimes I pause and think it’s not perfect, nope! Can’t do it. I still have “ ugly “ days even though I feel my most beautiful. I still wonder if life will be, what it will be, what it could be, and if I’m gonna make it happen. I still feel like everyone else.
I’ve learned to control my negative thoughts. I’ve learned to control my energy. I’ve learned to hold myself accountable. I’ve learned to love myself, which makes me unstoppable. I’m gonna feel how I feel, but every time I check myself, I check for myself. Ground myself, and come back to the present, and stay present in who I’m working towards, not who I’m used.
This year is amazing and I am grateful, for all my dreams and goals to be happening. We’re gonna keep pushing, keep healing, keep focusing on the focus. Love is a blessing, give it to yourself first. Happy New Year!